charlie

April 24th, 2005
i envy him. charlie.
i envy him for just being a character in this book i’ve just read.
i don’t really mean like he’s just "just…" rather, i would like to point out that at least he is not mundanely existing to be able to experience the real apathy around here…or whatsoever.
i don’t really know what i’m talking about.
charlie is in this great book the perks of being a wallflower by stephen chbosky (big thanks to arriane who lend it to me).
you know deep down i really wish i could be someone like charlie, i mean the way he looks at life and listens to people or swallows certain situations as if he needs to. that’s kinda freaky or yeah, impossible and would never happen to me but maybe just knowing that at least someone like him might have been really existing then i should say this world isn’t that bad after all.
if that is true, that charlie does exist, i so want him to be my friend…
and i know he wouldn’t mind me being his friend, too
if he is really the "charlie" i’m talking about.
if ever i’m gonna meet him, the first thing i’ll do is to give him a big warm hug!

probably the most thought-provoking line i have heard last semester

April 23rd, 2005
nothingness is not an absence rather a presence of a higher entity we could not comprehend or perceive.